I kind of feel like it hasn't really hit me yet.
I guess I was expecting a certain level of anxiousness, a quickening of the heart when I think about being a dad, a parent. I have definitely felt the excitement and joy, especially when we heard The little dude's™ heartbeat the other day. Still, I have been unusually calm, even for me, when thinking about being a parent.
Maybe I really am ready. Maybe the dogs really are the training wheels we always joked they were. Maybe the fear just hasn't had the chance to seep up through the layer of happiness that has coated me like a sweet glaze.
Ready or not, this is happening and I couldn't be happier.
8th grade graduation
4 years ago
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You know Doug, it really didn't become real for me until pretty late too. For the woman it is real immediately because bam, she's pregnant and almost right away she starts feeling sick and the body starts changing and all this stuff starts happening... and the father just kind of sits outside and watches... and waits. There's more work to do - I did everything I could to help Hosanna through the pregnancy - but not until she started getting big and I felt kicks, etc, did the idea of a baby coming really start sinking in.
(At least, that's how I remember it now... maybe I should go back and read my blog and see if that's *really* what happened.)
I remember hearing the heartbeat for the first time was pretty amazing though. I couldn't believe how fast it was. Like a little hummingbird.
I look forward to reading your posts and seeing how it goes for you guys!
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